messed up

ok 1st up, i wud like to say dat......
I dreamt of Taufik!!!!!
heh? the damn spore idol laaaaa... haii..
dun ask me how or why him but its jus him la ya.. so..
oh well.. dreamt dat he asked me out..

muahahahahahahahahahahaha *lmao*
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ok next is..
after having a nice chat wif Sir Daltz last nite
i wud like to post a statement dat he make
he said
sometimes when a girl needs u to be dere, jus be dere. nuff said.
no need to question why or intentions

how cool is dat?
dis is jus 1 of the reasons why i will always respect him.
looking back, he has always been dere for me no matter wad. no questions asked.
he is rite.
generally speaking, when a fren needs u to be dere, dere's no need for how come, why, what happened etc. dun b a kaypo..
when ure needed jus be dere. fullstop
no need to ask long ask short.

sometimes, presence of company is wad's most impt.
i still rem back in my KC days.. dats how it all went
pris was best at dat back den.
everytime we hav a problem, for example me,
danielle, ryna, alifya, michelle, kim, erica and pris will jus b dere
beside me, saying nthg but jus telling me its alrite.
comforting me n eventually cracking me up again.

this is why i will always rem my kc babes.
thru all those times, scoldings and public punishments..
i must say dat some of my kc frens hav come n gone.
but memories will always stay.
i will nvr trade my memories and experiences for anything else in dis world.
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well.. in recent weeks, many events have been happening world wide
doesnt directly concern me but i must say i do feel affected by it
those dat r gonna tell me 'dont tink so much' etc, save it
i'm not gonna b indifferent.
everyone is jus watching the world fall apart b4 our very eyes and we individuals cant do anything. i know.
but perhaps we shud all pray for God to deliver us out of this mess.
its an awful terrible mess.
why this? why now?
in the bible, revelations, God is coming. we all know dat.
but is this all really a sign from God?
perhaps so i believe.
we shud all be vigilant. pray hard and repent.
no pt living in regret and feeling sorry for ourselves.
self pity's gonna lead us no where.

yesterday evening's rosary session was really good i felt.
God held up the rain for us until we finished the rosary session.
God is good.
as soon as we finished, it started drizzling, den rain.

well, my heart, mind and prayers go out to the Balinese pple..
they are all innocent pple.. i jus dun understand why they hav to be in dis mess..
in those fuckers wanna bomb, go bomb demselves bcos they hav sinned terribly.
taking innocent lives like dis.
is dis the teaching of Allah? of cos not.
crazy ass holes.
wad holy war? they shud go bang their heads on the wall these crazy fuckers.
to tink ramadhan is coming up n they do dis.
ya perhaps its their last few days b4 they cannot 'sin' anymore..
BULLSHIT.

now we can only pray that God will make a way when there seems to be no way.
for all of us who r enjoying our lives out dere, mayb u shud stop having fun for once and tink abt those suffering n be mindful and thankful that we r all safe.
hope everyone has a peaceful nite.